Fathers’ Day 2015: Remembering Travis

June 21, 2015 |

I think about Travis a lot especially around June when he took his life 6 years ago and all the holidays when family gathers. Travis was a typical teenager, sometimes moody, sometimes joining with whatever the family was doing. He had many friends across many diverse groups at a very large high school.  Studying and doing homework were not his favorite things though he was very smart.  Travis loved music, longboarding and especially skiing. When he went skiing he would take a sandwich and carry water in his backpack and ski all day without stopping.

I will always remember all the trips and activities we did together in Scouting from cubs to the start of earning his Eagle. I remember working with Travis on many other scout’s Eagle projects, camping in Colorado, watching him attend Jamboree in Washington D.C., Philmont Scout Ranch in New Mexico, Northern Tier Boundary Waters in Minnesota/Canada and Seabase in Florida.

I will always remember our ‘just the two of us’ late dinners at Little Anitas and those spicy burritos or getting Philly cheese steaks at Pats. We worked together on building a backyard fence, quite the team.

I will always remember our trips to visit colleges. Of course they had to be close to skiing. Durango and Gunnison were in the running, our trip took us also to Mesa Verde National Monument and hiking. When we went to Montana State we had to visit the ski areas to see what they had.  We also floated the Madison River with a guide and even caught a few fish during a June snowstorm.

I will always remember our hunting trips to Kansas for pheasant and riding around in the back of a pickup truck with some locals to get to the best spots. Or hunting quail in Arizona with ‘his dog’ Sprinkle, Grandpa and ‘Sissy’ Sarah who got a quail too.

I will always wonder what could have been.

Steve Allexan is in the 2015 International Survivors of Suicide Loss Dayfilm.


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